End of 2013

Now is 12.22am of the 2014. Yea, is a new year now...
2013, is a long year..until.i cnt rmb all the details of the year
we went to singapore to meet my aunt and uncle, we having fun there..that's great

And the coming up is i work with yan and at that time, i really happy--turely from the heart..bt i knw, we are the best friend xD

Sports day of smp, wow..that really memorable..having fun with the cempaka juniors, helping up, non-sleeping the whole night. That's really cool..because you are just in front of me, you know?you really made me feel my heart beat stronger, but i know you just treat me as a friend.

But who cares?I'm happy to be single now, thank god and i will be enjoyed to it until I'm really for the right man ^^

STPM!!!!ya, although i hate to study, hate to become a form 6 student, but i have to face it..this is my life. So, come on!!! I can make it xD

And now, at the end of the year..i wish 2014 is a good and great year.. I'm looking forward to it....
Wish myself all the BEST!!!
HERE IS THE SHOW!!!!!!!!

发泄篇

我受够了！！！！！！！！！
为什么总是我？！？！？！？
为什么无视我
为什么不相信我
为什么骗我
为什么？？？

明明我和姐就是一起去的，一起差点晕倒，
可是为什么把你只是记得姐？？
小时候我也跌倒过，撞伤头，可是为什么你只记得姐撞伤过
在爸眼里，只有姐，对吧？
你只以她为荣，对吧？
时常在别人面前提她有多好多好
你又在意过我吗？
是我计较太多了吗？
可是这些不是父母应该记得的吗？

明明说实话，却没有相信我
看似若无其事，但是真的是这样的吗？
最恨最讨厌就是被误会了，可是又不想说太多

明明告诉我要早睡，明早有要事要忙
为什么一大早就给我发现昨晚你和别人聊到凌晨四点
说什么我有多厉害多好，我看都是假的吧
在你心里，我是什么？
真的很心痛。
也许是我渴望得太多了吧

活得像个傻瓜似的
别人赞你几句，就开心得飞上天了。
一直以为快乐可以很简单，可是为什么背后藏着这么多的痛。
真傻真天真
以为可以微笑的做自己

 都是一样的，不管是家人还是朋友、
你们都一样！！！！
没有人会记得我为你们做过什么
全把我当傻瓜了。。真的很委屈

有时我只想有个人可以懂我
真的那么难吗？

努力去讨好别人
努力做你想要的那个人
努力忍住了泪水
我是多么的努力去做每件事
可是为什么就是没人看得懂
怎么写着写着就哭了。。。。

真的感到很委屈
对自己失望，对世界失望

请别说你喜欢我，你仰慕我
因为你做不到
所以不要给我假的希望

人总是要学习一个人，习惯一个人面对
你不坚强，别人只会看笑话

不要期待，不要抱有希望，不要渴望
不然你会发现原来自己是多么得可笑
多么的无能
多么的软弱

到不了

我找不到我们的平衡点
我到不了你所谓的朋友
也许在你心的我什么都不是
我无法融入你们的话题内
这让我觉得那里已没有可以让我立足的地方了

我们活在不同的平行世界
我们相遇的机会可能只有七十亿分之一的机会
就算让我们相遇了
我们之间没有可以聊的话题
这样的我们跟陌生人有分别吗？

我们的聊天室变得安静
我不再主动找你聊天
你也不再出现
可能有一天，我们在街上碰面
我们会变成最熟悉的陌生人

如果我会驾车，我会带你去你想去的地方
如果我有一辆车，我会时常跑去你家偷偷望你
如果你愿意，其实我只想做你的好朋友

~1~
Feel like want to share something here but then i realize that there isn't anything that i can share,
is sad actually.
Life is so meaningless to me now
no aim, no mood, no impress

Really miss the days spent with those buddies, no matter where are you now, i just want to let u guys know that i really miss you so much.
School life, Taiwan trip, tuition time, events...
memorable~

~2~
Just found a couple in my school now, so sweet...
if i could brave enough to confess, but it just a stupid decision because the answer is so obvious
i hate feeling, it just like controlling your day.
i hate myself that i can't forget you
i hate myself that i always thinking of you where ever i'm
i just looks like a fool because you won't ever know that
every time i just pretend that i dun care
but in the heart i do care..so much

~3~
i just need a person who can listen to me now because i do have millions of words to express
unfortunately, there isn't such person
it just making me so emo day to day
damm, i really hate it ><

lifes

~1~
sometimes i wonder if i could live without you, probably.
although we did't talk much to each other, but the feeling is always there.
i wish you could speak to me and tell me about you story of your day, then i will listen quietly to you and smile to you.
i wish you could know that i'm thinking of you, i really hope that you will know it.

today's life is so meaningless
no aim for me any more, except for study.
what else can i do other than thinking of you to cover all this feeling?

that is just an impossible between us
no matter what i do, i just can't make you be mine
so maybe i have to let you go
or maybe i should grab you with my arms? 

~2~
feeling like a fool, being cheat by friends.
the trust between us is so invaluable, isn't?
giving fully believe on you, but you just be lie to me.
this is what beLIEve
that is a lie between us, and now should i still trust what you tell me, or i just ignore you?
maybe i'm not so important to you, so do i should being the same?

~3~
is good to express yourself through words
always hoping that one day, there will be a person that will always listen to your feeling and truly know your feeling.
that is good, isn't?